music of the soul

I'm sorry, i have no excuses that would fully compensate the time I haven't been writing but hey, a girl's got things to do, aye?

Basically, it's all been about the dance. I've discovered an amazing world of dances such as English Waltz, ChaChaCha, Rumba, Mambo... I've been having the most wonderful time in almost 22 years.
I'm actually dancing with men, there. Young ones and some much older than me but f*** that! I'm communicating and I'm staring at my instructor's (it's a him, young and drop-dead-gorgeous) divinely shaped ass. What more could a girl wish for? NONE!

I think I've found the perfect, though long, definition of dance, made by me so all rights reserved! Here it is!

Dance is a conversation between two lovers who have been torn apart from each other by any obstacle that you may think of. Be that a social difference, a racism issue or simply that one partner is involved in a relationship with another person.
Dance is a sweet remedy for the pain they are experiencing when they are separated. And by meeting on the dance floor, they create their harbour that is non-penetrable to any other person. Once on that secret place they find their peace of mind and joy that their souls are finally united.
For that tiny bit of time, while being alone with the Universe, no words are allowed because words are for nothing. Their bodies, so close to one another; in such a perfect harmony, control their minds. They create a unique story of the passion they feel for each other. It’s like they’re saying:
I know that when the music stops I’ll have to go back to the partner I love, but these few minutes you belong only to me and I wish I could stretch that minutes into a lifetime. And I want you to know that no matter what happens outside this dance floor; you’ll always be chained to me by every twist and turn that we have now made. This is a moment for us. No one else’s.
Dance makes excuses that are not made for the ears to hear. Dance binds lovers in tight knots that neither fire nor storm will ever manage to break. Dance makes a woman feel loved by a man who is already taken by another woman, probably more beautiful than her.
But above all, I dare say that dance is a moment when two people feel that the sky have just opened and then they feel that their future is going to be as bright as the passion they share.

If you ever find yourself back in College, with a new course written in your agenda, here's my advice:

KEEP ALL THE PAPERS AND IMPORTANT INFORMATIONS SUCH AS MUST-READ-BOOKS BY YOUR SIDE; DO NOT THROW THEM AWAY.

That's precisely what I did, the latter. And I regreted it very quickly. Now I have to run from one C. building to another to find a teacher or a student who has that VIP list of books needed.
It's a stressing job I could easily live without.

I'll hear you later...

Dora

My very few but most valuable friends

Playing my guitar
Listening to music which rare people like.

Doing NLP
Helping people solve their own problems
Communicating with people

Laughing
Watching Rowan Atkinson's movies
Watching Gerard Butler's movies
Watching Leonardo DiCaprio's movies (there, I've said it )

Writing
Writing stories that are of utmost importance for my spiritual and psychical growth.
Writing poems regardless how people say that they are no good. But on me they have a healing effect.

Being me!
Being me!

I've been wondering about something, lately. Isn't it interesting that, in my case, whenever a friendship reaches a peak - the person stops calling me. And then she leaves me waiting.

And when she sends me a message after all those months - she, how very unusual, wants something from me. Like, dunno, my exam is getting near so I would very much like your help on the subject.

What am I, a friend in need? A so-called-friend ONLY in need? Come on people, I'm not anyone's nanny. Why can't they just call me to wonder how my day was, to go and acutally have a cup of coffee once in a while without me asking for it!!!!?

I'm not usually that way but why can't they accept me for who I am? Why can't I be childish if I feel like it? Why can't I publish poetry books if I want to? Who's stopping me, I'd like to know.

I'm not going to lose myself on anyone's account, I can guarantee you that. But life without true friendship for me seems unbearable.

See you soon.

Since I've explained all the benefits that NLP has been giving to me lately, I've decided to dig even more into details, to give an example of the techniques I love the most. One of them is anchoring.

Basically, anchoring is a simple but powerful technique used when you want to reach a desired state. For example, if you are under a lot of stress, wouldn't it be nice to have a tool which would help you feel serene.

Here are the steps, based on the example.

1. Find a quiet place where you won't be disturbed. Also, ensure that you have enough time to relax and recall desired memories.

2. Recall the situation from the past when you've felt completely peaceful and content, and which you would like to use in any other time in the future.

3. Choose an anchor that is adequate for you in any situation when you might need the feeling of peacefullness. It can be any place on your body, but it's advisable that you make it discreet and easily portable.

4. Now think of a situation when you felt the most peaceful. Take your time. See what you've seen, hear what you've heard, feel and smell the situation... What are the colours, are there people involved or is it just you... Just feel it. It's only important that you are associated; that you see the situation through your own eyes. Feel all the emotions you felt.

5. Now, if need be, intensify that emotion you are just feeling. Make it bigger, brighter, louder...

6. When you feel your memory is reaching a vivid climax - release your anchor. Find that movement which will cause this brilliant memory come to reality.

7. Open your eyes and think of something else, to get out of the state. Fire the anchor again to see if it brings back that memory again. Repeat this for several times, each time intensifying the memory. And then fire your anchor again. What's it like?

8. Now, there's one thing I would like you to do. Go forth into the future, in a situation for which you know that will bring you stress. Feel the situation - what is it that's causing you stress? Now fire the anchor and notice the difference. Are you flown by a splendid feeling your anchor is giving you right now? Excellent. How do you feel about this situation now, when you know you have an anchor?

9. Re-test it the next day. Now you have a permanent anchor which you can use in real-life situations. Enjoy making new anchors!

There are also collapsing anchors and stacking and chaining anchors, but that's another story.

QUESTION FOR ALL: would you like me to continue writing about my NLP experiences? Please answer.

For the past nine months I can say that I've been through a major change. Back then I was shy, barely communicating with the people I didn't know, I've had no friends or if I had ones; they shone my own faults. I felt completely unsatisfied with myself and it was time to make a big difference!

The right way for me to change was finding about an NLP Practitioner Training. The man who was teaching, Ivan Petrić (Petrich), is a husband of a woman who once gave me a Reiki initiation. Both very nice and pleasant people. So, I knew I was in good hands.

My mother called him and he said that there was still a place in a group and that I'm welcomed to join them. The first time I've met those people I felt that I belonged there. They were all very friendly and easy to talk to. It was something I've never experienced in my life before.

In a group there was a girl who became my best friend. We clicked from the beginning and we are still in contact. She's leaving to Korea, though. The course itself was very interesting and not one bit of it boring. And, what's more, I knew that every excercise and method I could easily apply anywhere and anytime, even only on myself.

With NLP I've learned that no matter how big my problem seems to be at the given moment; I can change it. I can reframe it. I can make fun of it and thus remove it. I already feel great improvements considering myself. I have much more self confidence, I know that I'm beautiful and I don't feel guilty about it!

I also know that there is a man for me, although I haven't met him yet. But he's very near me. And I also know that my body, whatever the shape or size it is, is unique and perfect for me.

My goal has been acchieved and so I've decided to go on with NLP. Now I'm Ivan's assistent in the following NLP Practitioner Training courses. Can't wait for it to begin!

Bye for now...hear you soon!

Last week the movie 'P.S. I love you' finally came to the Cinema. I've been planning to see it for months now or, more specifically, the moment i found out that Gerard Butler will be playing the main male role.

After overcoming a problem of who I will go with, since it was Valentine's Day (and my best fried Iva shared my obsession with the movie after seeing Butler playing the Phantom), the drooling could begin.

Regardless of how I stared at Butler with my tongue on the floor and vacant expression on my face, I still noticed that the movie was quite different than the book. I can't say that I'm sorry because the book is too sad on some parts and the movie is supposed to be entertaining.
But there is one thing I can't forget and would like to change it; Harry Connick Junior as Daniel!!!! Oh, come on people! Seriously...

The critics, as usual, were utterly ignorant that, in the end, it was a love story of a man who tries to make his beloved wife happy and ready to move on, once he was gone. Instead they saw it as a movie more adecquate for the All Spirits day. Besides, it wasn't that sad! Ok, sometimes, but most of the times it wasnt unbearable.

But that's just me, I guess. It's not my fault that God created someone as sinfully handsome as Gerard Butler!

Hear you later!

Hey,

today is a day when I've dyed my hair. Now it's a chocolate brown and i feel renewed. Now, why am I writing about such an unimportant thing? Because it's a big thing to me, obviously. it took me over 10 years to discover my PERFECT COLOR, and I've finally found it.

I think that hair color determines your personality at the given moment. If, for e.g., you want to feel and look dangerously adventurous you put on a red colour. If you want to have the time of your life-you turn to blond.
To me, the best and the sexiest hair color is brown. Most definitely. Because every brown color has its own variety, you can experiment and experiment; if you feel like it!

And so today I feel that I'm on top of the world. And apart from my hair (no, it's not long), the feeling of happines throughout the evening is surely intensified due to my guitar and dance lessons. There is nothing greater for me but to lay into bed and feel completenes because I did something productive today.
That I did something that made me happy!

See you tomorrow? Bye!

Almonds laid once on the path
that is now empty and forgotten.
The path that I've been taking
now lays in the dark.

For the Sun forgot all about
the mist that hides in the
depths of my heart, trying to
erase memories that I once held dear.

Long ago my eyes glittered in
hope that your love will find me
between all other souls that wonder
through this life alone.

It's because I can't find peace without music; because my soul is restless until it hears that sweet sound, which soothes it beyond anything imaginable.
Because I feel like I've been away and the music brings me back home.

So, what else,beside music, do you need to know about me? I am a wicked girl who is just finishing Coleague and who is hoping to find a job soon.
As much as I love life as it is, I always tend to make it better! Can't help it!

OH, yeah, olmost forgot; I'm 22. Female.

What are my passions?

Writing, definitely. Mostly 110-pages-long stories. Of love, naturally, but hey... I've turned to songs a while ago, and I'm pretty sure they're getting better and better. So far they're only in Croatian but with time...i just might switch to English.

Uh, and the most important thing: I'M A COMPLETE LUNATIC FOR ENGLAND AND ENGLISH PEOPLE IN GENERAL! LOTS OF REASONS FOR THAT, REALLY. I'LL TELL YOU ABOUT THAT LATER!

Well, I think that's all from me now; I'LL BE BACK!

TAKE CARE!